Ayumi Hamasaki - Why... feat. JUNO Chinese Lyrics

Why... feat. JUNO

从那时有过了很久 是否改变了什么
距离拉远的究竟是什么

我以为拉开彼此的距离 是为了不要伤害你
但或许只是为了不要伤害我自己

即使相隔万里 依然听得见你的声音
你呼唤我名字的声音

无论身在哪里 总忍不住寻觅
寻觅着你的背影

为什么没和你说 “我想见你”
为什么没和你说 “我好寂寞”
什么叫体贴什么叫任性 两者的不同我甚至分不清

真正重要的 是要看着彼此的眼睛
而不是相互交谈了有多少句

倘若当初 能将自尊抛弃
是否现在就会有所不同

“我爱你” 这句话不知有多少次
到了嘴边又无法说出口
究竟我们还需要 有多坚强才好

我俩一起描绘的梦想 发誓要创造的未来
从那一天起一点一滴的 逐渐变得模糊不清

虽然我伸出了手 却什么也摸不着
Why... wow

为什么没和你说 “我想见你”
为什么没和你说 “我好寂寞”
什么叫体贴什么叫任性 两者的不同我甚至分不清

“我爱你” 这句话不知有多少次
到了嘴边又无法说出口
究竟我们还需要 有多坚强才好

From Ayumi Hamasaki's FIVE album

迷惑

在寻找自我的途中，我们找到了什么?
在途中又失去了什么？

As Time Goes By

Everyday we are learning new things through the way we see, hear and feel of those little things that are around us. To put it simply, everyday is a tiny little bits of experiences for us. Through these experiences, we are growing.

I am starting to think... did I know too much? To an extend that, I find life boring. Those that interest me in the past is boring to me. Feel kinda like zombie, yet, I breathe to live for the sake of living. In return, will others find me boring? I guess... yes. I think... that's when a mask is being put on (don't get me wrong, it's not hypocrite), and it becomes a part of me.

We are being hurt, betray, despise, etc... during the journey of growing up. And that's when we start building a defense of wall. The height of the wall will be determined by how much hurt one has gone through or how much one's heart is willing to open for another chance, or... both. Thanks to the current cruel realistic of this society, it's hard to express what one's true feeling.

At the age of 20+, it's already to an extend that... life is boring. As times continue to goes by... what is being ahead in the future? What can I expect?

Or... in the first place do i even have one?

能持续吗？

哎。。。 没有自杀的想法，只不过。。。感觉有点辛苦和痛罢了。

该面对吗？但似乎只会想更多而已。
该逃避吗？但似乎只会导致同样的事情再度重复。
不管哪一个，都会感觉痛。

何时才会停止？

这样下去，能逞多久？
这样下去，能藏多久？
这样下去。。。 还能坚持吗？

Woo~ Things to Get!

Time to list down some of "To-Buy" things!

1. DSLR Crumple Bag, ~$169
   
2. AF-S NIKKOR 50mm f/1.8G, ~$299
   
3. AF-S DX VR Zoom-Nikkor 55-200mm f/4-5.6G IF-ED, $489
4. Hoya CPL Filter, ~$30
   
5. Hoya ND Filter, ~$45
   
6. Nissin Flash, ~$270
   
7. 3rd Party Battery Grip, ~$250
   

By then when all those stuffs are bought, should be broke... Haiz~

Truth-self - Follow my heart

How I envy those whom actions, facial expression or their way of communication that may seems stupid and funny, but those, are through their real feelings, and what their heart is displaying.

Ironically, it seems that I've come to understand too well of my sub-conscious that it became hard to follow my heart and what I really wants - that it most of time hinders me.

矛盾

害怕背叛，却又渴望相信
害怕受伤，却又渴望爱情
想独立，却又想依赖
想做自己，却因为太了解自己而一直活在别人眼光中

衡量快乐的东西

有好几个月了，忘了最后一次大笑是几时。
好像是2多年前吧？
不记得了。。。

对于电子游戏也感觉乏味既无趣。
还在呼吸是因为得继续活着。
对于身边的朋友及家人，只要不伤害他们，那就够了。

钱，因这社会的关系，变得特别特别的重要。
也因为它，人与人相处变得现实。
也因为它，很多人很烦恼。
也因为它，让人感到开心。

也因为它，是我用来衡量快乐的东西。。。

Nothin' from Nothing

1hour 15minutes more to Chinese New Year (CNY). As the same as last few years, the excitement is not here anymore. Perhaps because we have grown up?

This year CNY and next year one will be bit different, cause I am still serving NS. For me, it was definitely great as it means holiday break for us, NS men. In fact, most people will be having holidays.

No particular new year resolution or "really-wish-to-buy-list'. Maybe one for now - hope time pass fast for just these 1 and a half more year to my ORD.

Am becoming more and more like a zombie... hope it won't affect those people around me that I care...

As the topic suggest, this whole post is quite meaningless, just wanna post out for the sake of posting.